June 13th, 2009
Today everything changed. I thought it was going to be a perfect, warm and sunny day but who knew that a cloud would hang over my head from this day on.
“Somebody help me! Please anyone! Help!”
I continued to scream as i ran down the street headed straight for the hospital. How could this happen? The doctors said we had years with him left and here he is lying here motionless in the stroller.
All i could think about is how i didn’t even want him in my life 13 months ago. I hated even the idea of him and now he has become my world. What would my parents think? Are they going to blame me for this? I only took my eyes off of him for a minute.
“Help me please!” I scream a last time as I approached the hospital doors and nurses came flying to my side.
I was asked what happened and could barely stutter a complete sentence out. My body had gone into shock.
The nurses and doctors carried my brother away as I sunk to the ground in fear they might not be able to do anything to help him.
My parents arrived only minutes after they took Ethan away and we weren’t getting any answers. They kept asking me what happened and all I could say was, “He wasn’t breathing so I ran. I ran as fast as I could but I wasn’t fast enough, I’m sorry....I'm so sorry.”